Sunday, May 01, 2005
haix we got silver for syf at first it was tears of joys but in the end it was tears of sadness...we misunderstood veri greatly...we thought tat we could have our instructor still with our school yet in the end was tat teck whye also got silver and now he has a hard time which school he should take... of course we was extremely sad wen we heard this and did not want him to go but we understand we must respect his desicion as he has to support his family too...and our pay is so much lower than teck whye....haix if he realli goes how will our co survive...i hav been blaming myself for thinking so highly of myself and now wat happen? in the end i am nothing but a small figure ashamed and miserable..pls tell me wat to do...my usual jojo advice is fading away as i lose confidence of myself...wat should i do? i hav been asking myself this ques for a few days already but i don seem to find the answer i want..i am worrying now cause exams are so near but i don seem to concentrate on anything except tat ques..sometimes i would cry to myself without actually knowing wat to do to control myself in a state...
i hope i can don get my hopes high cause i noe tat if i get my hopes to high, it is not granted, in the end the one being hurt the most wll be me...but the only think i can do now and left with is hope...wat should i do.. i can't end up in such a miserable state...
and tat was wat happen wen i thought tat getting silver was jus enough... yet i was wrong and was hurt seriously in the internal feelings...haix..now i juz wish tat i am on a beach right now and i can scream my head off till i am satisfite with myself...till the veri end of the edge of the road risking our lifes who might noe wat will happen.. now i juz hope tat i can juz relax and not hav anything to bother me...
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name: jojo
age: 15[18.11.91]
sex: femme
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wishes: to become a famous doctor..
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